Wish, but don't tell others

Today I once again found out, that it's useless to get exited about things. Or actually in my case, I can get exited, but must not tell anyone.

I was supposed to go out with a friend of mine. Last night I spent many hours thinking what to wear for the night out. It really was a hard decision for me. All depended on in which of the 2 possible clubs shall we go. I was happy and exited and fell asleep with a big smile on my face.

Today the friend called and sayed something like this: "I really want to go, BUT my bf is coming to town and besides it will be to cold outside in the evening." I was dissappointed ... Ok, it will be cold, but we would be inside.

Things like this happend to me all the thime. For example: I want to buy a skirt on wednesday. I tell my mom and a friend or 2 about my plan. After that I can be 100% sure that on wednesday I wount get the skirt. There might be something stopping me from going shoping on that day. I may not find the skirt I want or if I find it, there will not be my size. At that poin I will be furstrated and feel low for a few days. If I don't tell anyone and go get the skirt by myself, I will be exited only after the purchase. So there will be no room for dissappointment.

So the conclusion is: I'm alowed to get exited, but not alowed to tell anyone about my great plans untill they are fulfilled.